This is the second post in a series documenting my journey using The Artist’s Way: A Spiritual Path to Higher Creativity, a book and self-study program developed by Julia Cameron in 1992. In this post, I’ll discuss my experience as I navigate through week 5.

It’s Not the Book; It’s Me!

As I approach week 6, I wonder if something is entirely wrong with me and if I am doing this process of The Artist’s Way all wrong.

I went in with high hopes, but now I question whether I should continue. The urge to quit the process hit hard during week 4, which was a media deprivation week. The book seems to be written for the average person who has a cluster of people and things in their lives.

As I mentioned in my last post, I live a solo life.

This morning, I woke up not wanting to do the morning pages. The urge to quit the whole process is growing stronger. It almost feels like I am wasting my time.

I can’t say what I expected from this whole experience.

I am still hesitant about the whole Artist Date. At this point, I am starting to think I just have a bad attitude and I am the reason nothing seems to be working. It’s not the book; it’s me!

Recovering a Sense of Possibility

I am open to the concept that God or the Creator can come in and make things happen. Life is a magical experience, and when we least expect things to happen, they just do.

I have yet to experience any synchronicities; if anything, I am more inclined to get rid of things in my home. Over the weekend, I went through my bookshelf, putting aside books I will never read to donate.

There is a lingering feeling of being lost and stuck.

Now, I have given Cameron’s program a solid month of my life, and nothing has changed. Should I quit now?